Word...

I'm having a hard time reading my bible lately. I hate admitting it, but I say I don't have time. I know I know, I do have time! And I'm going to make it.

Theres the plan: Everytime I want to check Facebook, I'm reading a chapter :)

Charade - Amanda Falk

Another day hangs on a face that they expect to see
Its not all I want, but its all I've got to make this world believe
Nothing's wrong with me.
I'm an artist of emotion, a master of deceit
And the many faces I portray are nothing at all like me
And how I long to be free

From this never ending maze all my heads in a daze everytime I think
From this over played charade all my hearts gonna fade and I can't go on

Its a tug of war each moment, to hide this pain inside
Or to open up and spill this cup of feelings that I hide.
What would people do, and what would people say?
When they hear the truth will they turn and run away?
Will they throw a stone, or lend a shoulder to lean on?

From this never ending maze all my heads in a daze everytime I think
From this over played charade all my hearts gonna fade and I can't go on

Its not fair! I can't take this anymore
These tears have drifted me to shore
Is there hope for someone just like me?
And I hear a voice inside me say

"I can set you free...

...From this never ending maze I will be your strength if you let me lead
So just take my hand and just see
if you follow me you can can be free"

You are who You are... no matter where I am.

Well... what to write.

YC was amazing. I never actually thought it was as I was going on because there wasn't any bands there I really liked the speakers wern't as funny as I usually liked... pretty much it didn't seem like YC to me. But I think thats what made it amazing. I think I'm at a point with God now where I just spend time with him and its amazing... it doesn't matter what kind of time it is... its just His presence that makes me feel great. And I didn't need a funny speaker to talk to me... I just needed God. And he was there.

I learned alot this weekend. I don't even really know how or where to start to try and explain what exactly I did learn. I just learned stuff.

I did learn how amazing my friends are. So willing to do anything for me. So understanding. I'm so blessed to have them in my life :) ALL of them.
I'm loving where my life is going right now. I have NO clue WHERE its going and I've got to admit it, I really don't enjoy school, but thats God telling me what I'm meant to do... I do take comfort in knowing wherever God takes me I will love.

:D

Melis

Do You Feel?

So I've been trying to hear God's voice for a long-o time-o. I keep ignoring it (subcontiously of course) even when I know its not like he actually "speaks" in this big booming voice... "Melssa. I was you to..." Although that would be nice. But I know thats not the way he works. So latey I've really been listening to other people. Because God speaks through other people. And boy, oh boy have I been getting some answers.
-this whole summer was one clue. I ended up in North Carolina. Definitly not a random place.
-this week with Val coming up to me and asking me to help her out with youth group. (I'm PUMPED)
-tonight at church talking about people who have nothing, and how we have to step out there and hellp them, because who else will?
-also tonight when Arlene spoke about how are you supposedto minister...

its like all these things was God's low booming voice saying "Melissa. I want you to..."

And this new Rockey Summer CD is amazing. Its not even really my kind of music, but I think God wants me to listen to it to speak to me again. And he has been. So basically here's my new testimony in one song:



I'm thinking 'bout other things I heard about today
All this week and tomorrow
And how these hands could create some better things for bettering
but you see for now I got my own things
I cant help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching and heal the world
Lip service makes up look great

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your things
Yeah we all have our things I guess

I guess my mind wanders off
from time to time
Sometimes I convince myself
that all is fine in the world
It's not mine
Why should I
have to try
to fix things I didn't create or contrive

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have so many things

Have the habits
Had you
Has it been for long
Can you feel the souls behind what's going on

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your own things
Yeah all have our things

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your things
'Cause we all have so many things
And I can get past these things