I feel like blowing up. Don't worry... not physically...
School is starting to get stressful (composing my own atonal piece it a little tedious).
I have no social life (which is weird, because school work used to take the back seat to my social life, and this year its the other way around)! I don't know who kicked me in the pants to make me start working harder (well... I guess I do!) But its great... in a way.
And this year I'm doing a LOT of playing. Concert Band (which is actually hard!), Chamber Orchestra, Chamber group with Kim and Erin, 2 recitals, and lots and lots of practising! I gave up Youth Group and Youth Band to have more time, and I don't think that was enough. I feel like I still don't have enough time (which you may think is weird since I'm writing this blog entry)! But you know, I DO need to take a break every now and then.
I need to start doing some other things besides school work... I don't want to though. At least I don't think I want to. I'm always concerned about sleeping and doing work. A few times last week I actually forgot to eat lunch. Thats how bad this is.
Sheesh...
In any case... I want to get into Nursing school, so I need to work. So It's all good. I just won't have any friends at the end of it! ha.
I hope all of you guys have a social life, so that I can live vicariously through you all.
Lately I've fallen in love with this Bethany Dillion song all over again:
I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory
You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful
