I Will Go

So for the past few years I've had my mind set on going away and attending a bible collage of some kind. I really wanted to affect lives for Jesus in the biggest way I could. And I thought that was the way I was going to go about it. But because of my big thinking, I overlooked the big picture God had for me. I assumed that because I wanted to be a Youth Leader of some sort, that it was automatically the path God wanted me to take. Boy was I wrong.

This time next year I'll be graduating from my music degree. Exciting? Yes! I actually can't wait. I think I'll really have a great sense of accomplishment this time next year. All the tears and laughs are going to end up paying off even when right now, I can't see why I put myself through 3 years of this already. I've made some amazing friends in that school. Ones who have so greatly impacted my life, that they could be the sole reason as to why God put me here. Being Salvation Army, a music degree will never go unnoticed. Even if it was on the clarinet. Because of the clarinet, I've got to really show people that I want to use what god has given me for Him. That being said, there are many times when I haven't used this oppertunity. And for THAT, I'm even more sorry. But not that I know where my next step is towards, I can rejoice in God's provision and faithfulness. He knows best for sure.

The new Starfield CD is great. And I'm not just saying that. I don't feel as instantly connected with it as I did with Beauty in the Broken, but there is something about it that seems to scream out to me. Especially in this song:

To the desprate eyes and reaching hands,
To the suffering and the lame
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be.

I will go, I will go,
I will go Lord, send me,
To the world, to the lost, to the poor and hungry
Take everything I am, I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go send me!

Let me not be blind with priviledge
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing you've poured out on me, not be spend on me in vain
LET THIS LIFE BE USED FOR CHANGE

I want to live for you,
Go where you lead me
I want to follow you.