Where have you been?

The Fray... what can I say. I'm slightly in love with you.

Ladies and Gents... my new favorite song:

The how I can't recall

But I'm staring at

what was once the wall

Seperating east and west

Now they meet amidst

the broad daylight.

So this is where you are,

and this is where I am.

Somewhere between unsure and a hundred.

It's hard I must confess

I'm banking on the rest to clear away

'Cause we have spoken everything

Everything apart from I love you

You right where you are

from right where I am

Somewhere between unsure and a hundred

And who's to say it's wrong

and who's to say that its not right

Where we should be for now

So this is where you are

and this is where I am

So this is where you are

and this is where I've been

Somewhere between

unsure and a hundred.

I miss words I can relate to.

I'm happy.

Who's life is perfect?


:)

Boredom: The state of being bored. Oh really? Good one.

Interesting. Get this. Here are some definitions of bored/boredom:
nonchalant, disgusted, negligent, indifferent, spiritless.

Funny how ALL of those words perfectly descrpbe how I am RIGHT NOW.

Oh. My. Goodness.

This is quite possibly the most bored I have ever been that I have recelection of. Well I do remember once last year... I was bored like this, but someone called and rescued me. That was nice :).
Its not even fair. (see what happenes when you leave me Court! haha. Just kidding).

Was going to go to Youth Group. But no... that had to start at 6:30 and I had to find out about it at 7:30. Then I procedded to call some people who I thought would want to hang out with me who didn't have exams... and they were all gone out.

So here I am... BORED as HECK.

I don't even feel like watching Friends.
Something weird is going on.

Here I sit. Writting the second journal entry in less than an hour (heck, less than a half hour) telling all of you (slash like the 2 people who read this) that I'm bored, while you are probably out somewhere having fun... laughing. Hummm, whats that like?

I was just about to break out the Friends Trivia game, because it can actually run on Jon's computer... but NO. His computer was being dumb and kept freezing.

Man I'm bored.

Did you know? That boredom origins from 1855. The words bore (to hold up) and Dom Domain; position; rank. who's bright idea was is to make that into one word that means "the state of being bored". That sounds like it would be quite exciting. To be incharge of something. Well... I guess I'm incharge of not doing anything. Well, not really. My FRIENDS (the real ones, not the TV show) could have helped me out there... I'm over it though.

What to do, what to do...
Go for a walk? No... too cold/dark/scary/it will ruin my hair
Watch a movie? No... totally not in the mood.
Go for a drive? Can't... Mom has the car.
Sleep? No... already slept for 2 hours tonight because I was BORED. Now I'm annoyingly awake.

I'm out... even this is boring me.




aw2topihv;4io35ufnpiou57qmj-58goqi4j5qm; glitjhnmwvo;ei6hyvn; thnmbo;iayerhn;


ahhh... thats better. But... I"M STILL BORED. humph

gap

"Pain before Gain"

"You have to fight before you can win"

Those cleches have never been so true. When you're in that valley, and nothing seems like its going right, they seem to last forever. And no matter how many people pray, or how much you try it doesn't seem to get any better. Eventually everything gets better. Everyone suffers for a reason.

I have to say, it's weird how God answeres prayer everyday in everyone's lives, but you never know, or realize. Until something big happens, you don't even notice alot of the time. That knd of makes me feel bad. I don't give God enough credit sometimes, when I should give him the most all the time. But then again, the big things happen so that we can see them, so that we can really see how much God does listen to what we ask him.

Its also funny how this time, they all seemed to have come in one huge wave. People I care about who were very sick, are better. People who don't know God are getting there. Its so cool. Then there are other things in between the big and little that prayers are going into, and "nothing" seems to be happening... but the prayers that I've seen answered lately make me realize that something will happen. It may take weeks, months or years, but it will work out, because we're God's children, and lets face it he wants whats best for us. And we'll get it... in His time!

Woooooo!

Later gaters!

-Melissa

Dear MacGamut,

I'm afraid to inform you that our once loving relationship has some what diminished (ahem) since our first meeting so long ago in my first Aural Skill course. I am certain that I'm saying the right things, hearing you clearly... but you never cease to amaze me. How I can get those glorious secondary dominants, and you give me a huge red X because I forgot the 7th, or I spelled the chord enharmonically.

I remember the days when we used to hang out on a Friday night. You were always there whenever my other friends had to work. But now, I sit here with you and feel like throwing my computer out the window. What happened? Why did you have to change? I majorly (cough) loved your I IV V I progressions, and your P5'ths. But now you giving me all this I vii, V/vi vi ii V I and aug11 junk! Whats up with that. Our friendship has officially been ruined. I'll never be able to look at you the same way again.

So long,

Regretfully,
Melissa Williams

This is my life... and it's now or never!

No post in a while. I'm slack!! actually I'm not... I haven't written in a while because I've had other more important things to do! Like SCHOOL! Done all term projects, only thing left really is exams. Its wicked. Exams don't even scare me as much as 2500 word papers do, so I'm on the home stretch.

Last weekend was intense. I had 2 surprise partys. (I still feel like I shouldn't tell you that because I'm afraid they will find out, but the're over! Weird.) Anyway, at Katharines house on Friday night there was one for Jon, and Saturday night there was one for Tim. They were both huge successes, and fun times. Especially taboo at Tim's. That was nuts, and extremly loud! ha
I got the new Josh Groban CD this week too. Its AMAZING. Loves it.

I just remembered... all I had to eat otoday was a muffin. Hum... and Laura, Allison, Tim and I went out around church passing out flyers for out band concert next Sunday... so obviously that involved loads of physcial activity like racing from house to house... so man, I definitly lost like 5 pounds today. Yeah right, If it were only that easy!

I really have nothing else to say... nothing interesting. Why are you guys friends with me! ha.

Tonight = me watching Anne, or Harry, or Friends. Hummmm... which one will I choose?
Votes?

Later Gaters :)

Quiz

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
Depends...

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yep

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Depends on what kind of social setting

4. Do you take compliments well?
No... I get all embarrassed/shy

5. Are you an active person?
Not as much as I used to be.

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
Probably not thinking about it now... but if it were to happen I think I'd find some way to survive.

7. Do you like to ride horses?
Sure

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
kid = 12

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
ummmm... super mario brothers

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you get involved with him/her?
No

11. Are you judgmental?:
Not usuallyu

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Probably not.

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?:
be pursued.

14. Use three words to describe yourself:
Optimistic, musical, and tall. ha

15. If you had to choose, would you rather be deaf or blind?
If I had to choose, neither

16. Do you concider yourself mature or imature?
Depends on who I'm around.

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
Nope

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you tried to save (assuming all pets and people are safely out)?
Pictures and friends dvd's

19. How often do you read books?
Whenever I feel like it.

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?:
a little of all 3 I guess.

21. What is your favorite children's book?
Love you forever.

22. Have you kissed any of your BK friends?:
no

23. How tall are you?:
5'12

24. Where is your ideal house located?:
Here, Corner Brook, or maybe Australlia

25. Boxers, Briefs, Thongs, Or Grannies?:
dumb question.

26. Last person you've talked to?
in person? jon, andrew, anna and melaine

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?:
Nope

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
Never, but I went to see Oliver on Saturday night!

29. What are your keys on your key chain for?
House and Car

30. Where was the furthest place you traveled?
Toronto, but in May it will be Russia!

31. Where is your current pain at?
A newfie definitly wrote these questions.... my nose is hurtung because of the cold...?

32. Do you like mustard?:
Yeah

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?:
Sleep

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?:
mom

35. How long does it take you in the shower?:
15-20 min

36. Can you do splits?
nope, but I can touch my toes!

37. What movie do you want to see right now?:
high school musical... *cough

38. Do you put lotion on your dog or cats?:
No....?

39. What did you do for New Year's?:
Youth Group

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
Never saw it

41. What was the cause of your last accident?:
ummm, like 2002. we rear-ended someone. opps

42. Do you own a camera phone?:
No

43. What are you drinking?:
Nothing.

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
not likely

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
e

46. Who did you vote for on American Idol?
haven't. but canadian idol ... rex!

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?:
9ish

49. What do you buy at the movies?:movie ticket..that's about it. Maybe a drink at Shoppers.

50. Do you know how to play poker?
I know the hands and stuff...

51. Do you wear your seatbelt?:
Sure do.

52. What do you wear to sleep?
pj's??

54. How many meals do you eat a day?:
2 usually.

55. Is your tongue pierced?:
ew, no.

56. Do you always read BK journals?
Sometimes, depends on who it is.

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?:
a mixture

59. Ever been to Vegas?:
Nope

60. Did you eat a cookie today?:
not today, but I did have enough yesterday to last me for a long while

61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
Nope

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?:
steal... opps

63. Do you hate chocolate?:
no

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?:
Too much.

65. Is your cell usually on vibrate or ring?:
Ring.

66. Are you a gullible person?
Sometimes.

67. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I don't need one.

--the letter A:
are you available? I don't like the word 'avaliable'... I'm single
what is your age? 18
What annoys you? slow people/drivers, and swearing

the letter B:
do you live in a big house? not really
when is your birthday? December 13th
who are your best friends? Laura, and Jillian, Jon, Tim

the letter C:
what's your favorite candy? anything!
who's your crush? I don't know...
when was the last time you cried? This morning

the letter D:
do you daydream? Sometimes.
what's your favorite kind of dog? my dog!
what day of the week is it? Monday

the letter E:
how do you like your eggs? Runny
have you ever been in the emergency room? me? never.
what's the easiest thing ever to do? play the tuba (oh burn)

the letter F:
have you ever flown in a plane? Yip
do you use fly swatters? no, I use my shoes..
have you ever used a foghorn? airhorn? pretty much sounds the same.

the letter G:
do you chew gum? I am right now!
are you a giver or a taker? I don't like taking things from people... so giver?
do you like gummy candies? mmm candy

the letter H:
how are you? can't complain.
what's your height? 5'12
what color is your hair? brown

the letter I:
what's your favorite ice cream? chocolate chip cookie dough.
have you ever ice skated? I did, like last weekend!
do you play an instrument? a couple.

the letter J:
what's your favorite jelly bean? black!
have you ever heard a really hilarious joke? I live for halarious jokes.
do you wear jewelry? no

the letter K:
who do you want to kill? no one
do you want kids? eventually.
who was your kindergarden teacher? Mrs. Thorne

the letter L:
are you laid back? not usually
do you lie? I try not to.
when was your last kiss? ....?

the letter M:
whats your favorite movie? too many... the lion king ?
do you still watch disney movies? DUH
do you like mangos? yeah, they're slippery when you peel them

the letter N:
do you have a nickname? not really
whats your favorite number? 16
do you prefer night over day? depends

the letter O:
whats your one wish? One? I don't know.
are you an only child? nope, I have an older brother.
do you wish this was over? please/

the letter P:
what one fear are you most paranoid about? losing my friends
what are your pet peeves? we've already been over this.
whats a personality trait you look for in people? funny, musical... etc etc

the letter Q:
whats your favorite quote? right now its 'evaporate tall person' I find that pretty funny.
does time seem to pass quickly or slowly? Fast.
are you quick to judge people? I try not to.

the letter R:
do you think you're always right? ha, nope
do you watch reality tv? only EHM, and a wedding/baby story if you call those relaity shows/
whats a good reason to cry? saddness, stress.

the letter S:
do you prefer sun or rain? both at the same time!
do you like snow? loves it
what's your favorite season? They all have their own things.... but not spring so much... its always muddy and wet.

the letter T:
what time is it? 354
what time did you wake up? 8:46
when was the last time you slept in a tent? Last night at camp! aww.

the letter U:
are you wearing underwear? um yeah...
do you prefer underwear or thongs? you couldn't think of a better word for U then underwear? now really...

the letter V:
whats the worst veggie? Turnip
where do you want to go on vacation? Australlia
where was your last vacation to? Corner Brook! woop

the letter W:
what's your worst habit? cracking my back... I don't have alot of habits
where do you live? st. john's
what's your worst fear? losing friends/family.

the letter X:
have you ever had an x-ray? bunches and bunches
have you seen the x-games? nope
do you own a xylophone? haha, awesome question... but no I don't

the letter Y:
do you like the color yellow? its happy
what year were you born in? 1987
whats one thing you yearn for? jesus!

the letter Z:
whats your zodiac sign? sagatarius.
do you believe in the zodiac? nope, its fun to read sometimes though
what's your favorite zoo animal? penguins!

well, that was a complete waste of time if there every was! but fun times!

Confusion.

I'm pretty sure this is the most confused I've ever been. I'm even confused about being confused. Its confusing... ha.

School is... well going. I can't wait until December 13th at 11:00am. So it will be over. All I have to think about after that is what I'm going to do for the rest of my degree (minor........) . Education, Performance, Music Therapy.... like really. I have no clue. I feel like I'm supposed to do ed. But just because everyone else does. And thats the only thing that can guarentee you a steady job (once you find one). People tell me "do what you want to do..." and thats all fine and dandy, but other people are saying "you have to do education, you'll never get a job". I don't know what to do... oh I guess you could say CONFUSED. (Good word.)

Seems like I get confused about everything. And alot of the times, it goes the bad way. I hope that doesn't happen with school.

Also, who are my friends? You know when you feel like you have an abundance... and really, I can't even tell who they are anymore. Some of them seem to come to me when they need something... which is what friends are for, but its more than that too. I feel like I don't have anyone in certain places to talk to. I need to be super close to a person before I really talk ot them... there's only 2 people in my whole life who I've told everything to. If I have a problem, they know I do before I even do. Its cool.

Don't even get me started on theother confusing thing. Yikes. Its a little problematic.

I'm a runner? did you know that. No, not like olympics or anything (if you know me, you might be laughing). But I run away from anything, and everything. If I don't want to face it I won't. I find an excuse. Simple example, but praticing... me: "Oh I have to read my bible". Which is not a bad thing... but still, see where I'mcomming from? I always run away.
If I get really close to someone, and then realize I'm going to hurt them, or myself, I run away. That needs to be fixed...

Well I needed to vent. And I have a lesson in 7minutes. (i'm going to regret reading the bible after this lesson :))

later gators!

I have this thing where I go through bands/singers in phases... I'll really crave one artist then get sick of them then move on to another one. I think thats just Gods way of getting his message out to me. I listen to a certain band until I get something out of it, then it just so happend that I move on to something else. About a month ago it was "Praise you in this Storm" by the Casting Crowns, and now I've moved onto Jeff Deyo.
Jeff Deyo is a really smart guy. He loves the Lord and has a major talent with words and leading worship. Its really cool. I think he was the best worship leader that I've ever seen live before. He knows where and when the spirt is, and just goes with it. I remember inparticular one time, we sang a chorus (just the crowd) for no joke like 15 minutes. He never even sang a note... just left other people to enjoy the moment... and as he did it he stood on stage with his hands open praising the Lord. Its cool to see. Anyway, after that blurb... I was listening to his CD Saturate a couple of days ago and as I was listening he spoke in between songs... and this is what he said:

We've got to come to that point in our lives where we actually believe that God, and His desires for us, are truly the things that are going to make us happiest. Give us the most peace and satisfy our souls deeply. We talk about this and we know in out minds that its true. But somehow these beliefs, they don't make it into our everyday lives. I mean, if they did wouldn't we be different, wouldn't we act different? Wouldn't we talk different? I don't think its because we don't want to be happy of that we are trying to sabatoge our own lives... maybe we just don't really trust God.
We've got to decide that no matter what the cost we want to be be satisfied in God alone, in Him alone. Arn't you tired of reading your bible because you feel like you have to? I want to want to love Jesus. I want to long to spend time with him. I want to get up in the morning and can't wait to be with him.
Anything in my life that is more valuable to me than God, well that thing's an idol. I don't want it to be like that. I want to be like what John Piper said in The Pleasures of God. "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him." I want God to be glorified. So I want to see what I can do to be most satisfied in Him.

Awesome eh?

I find the first paragraph the hardest sometimes. Believing that what's going on today is what will prosper you in the future. Its hard to believe sometimes. But the grace of God will carry you through the hardest times.

-Melis

I want to be Satisfied in You Alone

my heart has grown so cold
i've let the darkness in
i've said You are everything
but still You weren't enough

i've not been true to You
my life has hurt you, Lord
i'm running back into the safety of Your hand

i wanna be free in Jesus
i wanna be satisfied in You and You alone
take this heart
take my life
pull me close
satisfy

my heart has heard Your call
but i have closed my ears
i've said i would follow You
but still i've chased the wind

i've stretched my hand toward You
while holding to this world
but now i'm letting go
and reaching out to You

i wanna be free, Jesus
i wanna be satisfied in You and You alone
take this heart
take my life
pull me close
i want to be free, Jesus

i want to be satisfied in You and You alone
take this heart
take my life
hold me close

satisfy

i'm letting go i'm letting go, Jesus
cuz i wanna be free

Starfield Loves Us.

Beautiful Newfoundland
posted: Oct 11,2006
The morning began with a 3:30 lobby call (meaning approx 2 hours sleep for each of us) and a string of early flights - which eventually brought us to Deer Lake, Newfoundland. We then were met by the best host we have had in recent memory, George, who drove us to our beautiful chalet, complete with hotub and view overlooking a brand new golf course. Hello Newfoundland... The event we were privileged to be apart of was the famous YC Newfoundland. This year, we found ourselves hanging out with our South African friends Tree63, a band called the 'Newsboys' and our new friends Desperation Band. We all packed into the Pepsi Center with 3000 crazy youth for an amazing weekend. We were sloted for the final 2 days of the weekend and when we arrived, it was evident that there were great things happening in the hearts and lives of the passionate Newfies. Newfoundland was a beautiful beautiful place to wind down the tour and has left us with memories that definitely rank at the top of our memory bank. But the memory that trumps them all was the event that capped off the weekend. We, Starfield, found ourselves live on Mtv. You know, TRL, etc.....wait...I have just been told it was Ntv. Hang on...yes, it WAS Ntv. I am being told that N stands for Newfoundland. Newfoundland TV. In all seriousness, we had the privilege to play live on Ntv as they broadcast the final hour of the event live across the province. We hope that we can find ourselves back at YC in the very near future... Gordie

They also just won 4 Covenant Awards too ("We walked away from the evening totally shocked and humbled as we won 4 of the 5 awards for Album, Group and Song of the Year as well as Pop/Contemporary Album of the Year.") . You guys ROCK.


www.starfieldonline.com

At Least I'm Flying Free

This week was good... and frustrating at the same time. But what else is new! ha
Theme song:

Something has changed within me
something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
of someone else's game

Too late for second guessing
To late to go back to sleep
Is time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes...
And leap....

It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
and you can't pull me down

I'm through accepting limits
Cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try I'll never know

Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love, I guess I lost
Well if thats love,
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye I'm defying gravity
And you can pull me down!

Unlimited!
Together we're unlimited
Together well be the greatest team
There's ever been,
Dreams the way we planned 'em

if we work intandum...

there's no fight we cannot win
just you and I defying gravity
with you and I defying gravity
they'll never bring us down!

So if you care to find me,
Look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately
"Everyone deserves a chance to fly!"

And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free.
To those who'd ground me,
Take a message back from me:

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high -- defying gravity
And soon I'll them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz,
Nothing [no wizard] that there is or was,
Is ever gonna bring me down!

Exciting things / THING on the go.

Well you know how I'm in MUN Chamber Orchestra and everything, well in May they're doing a little bit of travelling, and because they were supposed to go last year, there were no clarinet spots. BUT the 2 clarinets who were supposed to go dropped and now I GET TO GO.

Where? RUSSIA! Oh Man, at first I thought I wouldn't be sad because I couldn't go. But now that I know I'm allowed to go I"M SOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!! BAH!

Alright so just so I don't get my hopes up, I'll say everything is not "for sure" with my mom. But she did say (among other things) "You can't pass up an oppertunity like that!" and "When you go to russia... etc." hehe!

There are some techniqalties, like I need to get a job, because its going to cost some money you know. Which then means I think I'll have to quit songsters, and mabye something else. Depending on what kind of job I get. Ah. But I think it will be a worth while sacrifice anyway!

WOOOOO. Me and Courtney, hanging in St. Petersburg. Oh baby. Its going to be sweet.

190 days :)

Jen!!

Jennifer! Whats up with me and none of my comments going through on you're blog? Do you get them?
Just wondering!

Summer already?!?

Just got an e-mail from Susan about Junior Music Camp 2007. Thats nuts. I definitly want to be a part of that again this summer. It was pretty close (or maybe it was) my favorite week out of my whole summer at Starrigan.

That (and a conversation Jon Seritha, Heidi and I had today about camp) made me think about my summer, and what I really want to do with it. I have a few options. I wanted to work at Camp Walter Johnson at the conservatory (I hear I could teach Clarinet!!). But the staff there isn't that big so I need to have some other options. I would love to go back to a camp somewhere. I just don't think summer would be summer without going to camp for most of it. I think I've gotten all I can get out of Starrigan, not that I don't love it, and definitly I'll miss it ssoooooo much. That place is my other home. But I want to try something new. Something more independent for me. Something really out there. I guess I'll apply to some different places and see what happens. If God wants me at CWJ then I'll be there.

Meaghan also brought up the idea of just living away in Europe somewhere. That would be the experience of a lifetime. I have to go to Europe sometime, its on my list. But I don't know if I'm ready to spend my whole summer living without adults, paying rent, cooking. Not yet anyway.

There is one other option I am leaning towards for this summer comming up. It kind of depends on what goes down here throughout the year (nervous laughter). But who knows. There are rumors flying about a certain group of people going to help out the Corner Brook temple when their officers leave, and that would be amazing. And If you know me, you know how much I love Corner Brook. That would be an amazing summer too. So many options, and loads of time to think about it... but not that much at the same time.

later gators :)
Melissa

(PRODUCT) RED

It will be here in 8-14 days! Oh baby. I'm so excited.

I bought my new iPod nano, special edition online today! I've been thinking about getting either an mp3 player or an iPod for a while now, and the iPod won out. I was going to get a blue one, but then I saw the new special edition online, and $10 goes towards the Global Fund to fight AIDS in Africa. Which is always a cool thing to contribute to. And its RED! Its going to be awesome! Anyway, I just thought I'd let you all know, because I'm PUMPED.

SHOUT!

We’re gonna shout loud, loud
Until the walls come down
Shout loud, loud until the walls come down
Loud, until the walls come down

Cause we’ve already won and you don’t have a chance
Yeah we’ve already won and no, you don’t have a chance
Yeah it’s already done and you don’t have a chance
Because we’ve already won
We have already won

So I guess I shoud update you all on YC 2006 eh? It was an amazing time if there ever was one. I was uber excited to go because Starfield was going to be there. And If you know me, you know that they are my favorite band. As in I like them better than Rex Goudie, or Brad Gushue, or Weber. (I'm also a loser? Did you know that?) I bet you did, anyway I'll try and give you a summary of the weekend.

Friday:
6:30am - We met in the Citidal parking lot to be on the bus and head out on the road for 7am. It was early, but we made out stop to Tim's to get coffee before we left, so it was all good.

7:00am - Laura and I sat next to eachother, we listened to my mp3 player, got pumped for starfield, Sang BSB for 2 hours, proably annoying everyone on the bus, but we were hyper so we didn't care. haha.

5:00pm ish - Arrived in Corner Brook. We registered, and headed off to the Valley Mall to get supper before we had to be on the bus at 6 to line up for the opening session of YC. Myself, Laura and Katharine after we ate went for a walk in downtown corner Brook. We went in search of More for Less, and it turned into a photo scavenger hunt... haha. We were total tourists and got our pictures taken by newfie statues, giant sunflowers and murals of people... haha. It was fun times, hopefully sometime soon Katharine will send me some of the pictures and you'll get to see them.

6:15pm - Lined up with 4 thousand other young people, that was nuts. I hate lineing up at YC, people are nuts, puching and stuff... but at the same time It's exciting because you know whats comming really soon.

8:00pm - It Starts!! It started with a little video clip like it always does, with the song I wrote the lyrics for in the beginning of the blog. Desperation Band lead all the Friday night stuff. They were good! I didn't know any of their stuff, but I liked it all the same. They had a crazy DJ-type person who did some awesome stuff. haha. It was good times.

Saturday:
9:00am - After an awesome night's sleep at my nans Me and Laura got droped off to watch Abandon (band from our church) play at the prayer service before the opening of the general session. They were awesome as usual! :)

Desperation Band did all the worship for Saturday morning too. We heard from Roseavelt Hunter who is this cool speaker who makes me laugh sooo much. He was at YC before. There was also this comedian guy who spoke and did some crazy shadow puppet thing (It was actually RIDICULOUS). Soooo,m funny. I havn't laughed that hard in a long time. haha.

All day Friday and Saturday the YC people kept saying about how we had the Newsboys to look forward to, but they never mentioned Starfield. Which kind of got me worried. I was afraid they wouldn't come! But sure enough, at the night time session on Saturday, they were there, and I sat with people Tim, Michelle, laura and some other people and most of us went jumping when they came out. I was right next to the stage, yelling the wordds at the top of my lungs. :) It was such an amazing moment. Something about Starfield just puts me in that place where I feel sooo happy and I can get so close to God, unlike I can with anyother band. ahhh, they're sooo great. I had my lyrics of I'se the By'... but they never asked people to come up who knew the words. I had all the verses typed out on paper for them and everything! (Okay, I'm not nuts, but every show I've seen (which is SEVEN!) They ask one of the fans to come up on stage and help them with the words, because they don't know them all, and I knew they were going to do it, so I brought them with me!) I'm just a die-hard fan! Anyway, despite not going up on stage... I had an awesome time.

10:30pm - we had late night worship with the Newsboys, they put off a concert for us, I was suprised that was the only thing they did at YC, but they're a HUGE name, and it was a big thing for YC newfoundland to have them there. I'm not that big of a fan, but whatever, they were fun.

Sunday:
9:30am - Prayer service. Before it started, Starfield was there setting up their store, and I went over there with my camera in one hand, wallet (to but a shirt) and my CD in the other, all ready to get everything I wanted... a shirt, picture and and autograph! But they wouldn't let us. Oh well!

10:30am - The rest of Sunday was awesome with Tree 63 and Starfield leading worship all the time. We were on NTV which was cool, but it was annoying how staged it was. Oh well, I guess it was cool to get it across to around 1 million people (apparently!).
(I';m getting lazy now in case you havn't noticed.)

Anyway, our church decided to stay for one more night because we didn't want to go home in the night, so Laura and I decided to stay at the Corner Brook Temple for the last night where we hung out with people, walked to Tim Hortons, and had a horrible night's sleep on the hard floor with no pillow and no sleeping bag. Oh yes It was the worst night sleep ever known.

Monday:
8:00am - on the road again back home. I was turned around talking to Laura and Jeanette for an hour and a half until Deer Lake, then Tim came and sat by me for most of the rest of the ride. We did SuDoKu's and chatted it up. We ended up getting home at aroung 5:00pm because of traffic (a car flipped over behind us so we stopped to see if everyone is okay.

Anyway, it was an awesome weekend in all, and I can't wait until October 5-7th at Mile one Center. AND HILLSONG UNITED JUNE 5TH!!! Oh baby!

Band and Songsters soon, so talk to you all later!

Leave a COMMENT please!!! (If you made it through the whole thing! haha...

Later Gator!

Mid-Term (but not really mid-term) Exams.

Its approaching that time of year again. Thanksgiving weekend/holiday, Mid-Term Break, YC weekend. What ever you want to call it. And my stress level went from 3 to about 11 (out of ten). Yip!
Tomorrow - Psychology Midterm,
Wednesday - conducting AND have a theory assignment due
Thursday - History exam, and Keyboard harmony test.
BUT on FRIDAY (!!) I'm going to YC! YEHAWWWWWWWWW!

I want to be really excited but I can't be until thursday's school day is over. But how can I not be excited, seing my favorite band EVER. Eppp. Okay, I might be a bit excited.

I spent all day Saturday preety much uploading hours of music on mom's mp3 player for the bus ride... its going to be a good time. Even though there are alot of people who arn't going out on the bus. Me and Laura a hopefully going to go on the mp bus. That would be funny.
On my way to snac last night I laughed the hardest I ever have I think. ahha Well the hardest at someone. Chris and Dale were singing along with the song "What if God was one of us" Funniesy thing ever.

Anyway, I changed my template because I was bored of the other one, and Court reminded me of this cute polka dot one! wohoo!

Studystudystudystudystudy!
later gator!

g.a.p.!

Ask God to speak to you, and he will.

1 From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the LORD his God. 2 He said:
"In my distress I called to the LORD,
and he answered me.
From the depths of the grave I called for help,
and you listened to my cry.

3 You hurled me into the deep,
into the very heart of the seas,
and the currents swirled about me;
all your waves and breakers
swept over me.

4 I said, 'I have been banished
from your sight;
yet I will look again
toward your holy temple.'

5 The engulfing waters threatened me,
the deep surrounded me;
seaweed was wrapped around my head.

6 To the roots of the mountains I sank down;
the earth beneath barred me in forever.
But you brought my life up from the pit,
O LORD my God.

7 "When my life was ebbing away,
I remembered you, LORD,
and my prayer rose to you,
to your holy temple.

8 "Those who cling to worthless idols
forfeit the grace that could be theirs.

9 But I, with a song of thanksgiving,
will sacrifice to you.
What I have vowed I will make good.
Salvation comes from the LORD."

10 And the LORD commanded the fish, and it vomited Jonah onto dry land.

My Week

Band executive meeting was good. Long, but there were lots of fun and exciting things to discuss!! Trips are really the best thing ever. By yourself, with your family, with your friends. Its a good time. You can relax in knowing that you never have to worry about school (most of the time) or being bored (most of the time.) You can just visit, shop and hang out with friends. I can't wait to go anywhere even if it is just Gander or something.

Guys... YC is in 13 days. not next Friday,but the one after we will beon our way to YC 2006. I have never been more excited for YC in my life. Because I'm at a point now where I need a reboot. I need to visit the "spiritual ultramar" as Heidi says. Right now I'm trying to get there myself. I hate how you get so fired up at YC, then in a week or two its gone. I want to feel like that all the time. Last week I was never in the mood to read my bible or pray... just because I was to tired and frustrated... all I wanted to do is sleep. But now I'm relizing that you have to do that stuff. I feel like such an amature Christian sometimes. I see other people's lives and wonder why I can't be having the same experiences as other people. But then I guess it wouldn't be my life. So I'll live my life the way God wants me to live it, then I guess nothing else matters. He'll give me moments and things he things I need, at the exact time I need them. So who gives!

In other news... mind reading. That would be a good trait to have. Don't you hate it when you talk to someone and indirectly you're talking about them, and you wish they would know.. but you can't tell them! ha. Oh its fun times. But again, I think I should just go with the flow, and maybe what I'm getting at isn't the road I'm supposed to take. But still... its annoying.

I should go and prepare myself for my conducting thingy.

Later Gater!
-Melis

BlahBlahBlah

Well the past few days have been horrible. Well everything after Wednesday night. Everything possible has gone wrong. No joke. But then you hear a song that reminds you thet everything is going to be okay, even through the storms.

I was sure by now
God, You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with You"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

CHORUS
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with You"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

Though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

What a good song.

Wake me up when September Ends.

Back to school. Ug. I've already had loads of stress... like 2 auditions, a theory quiz, and we already have a History paper due on the 28th.

yesssss

So hasn't been a blog entry in a while eh? Maybe because I like to post on BK because you get loads of comments there. But on this I only get them by like 2 people! haha. Ah Well. I enjoy Blogging better anyway. SO I should try to keep all you blog people updated!

26 days until YC! and STARFIELD.

I also have a new love... High School Muscial. Its awesome. Funny, Cute, And a MUSICAL! Who could aske for more? mmm.

"We're all in this together

Once we know

That we are

We're all stars

And we see that

We're all in this together

And it shows

When we stand

Hand in hand

Make our dreams come true"

Its such a feel good movie. Kind of lame, but what can you do? I love Lame. I AM lame! :)

Living in my own world

Didn't understand

That anything can happen

When you take a chance

I never believed in

What I couldn't see

I never opened my heart (ooh)

To all the possibilities (ooh)

I know that something has changed

Never felt this way

And right here tonight

This could be the start

Of something new

It feels so right

To be here with you (ooh)

And now looking in your eyes

I feel in my heart (feel in my heart)

The start of something new

I like new things.

Title ^

Never did explain the title of my blog. Its a Starfield song, one of my favorites actually.

Like a child I'll take you at your word
As these mountains of doubt, they fade away
I'm longing to trust and love you more

So for me this is beautiful
Brand new thought and a brand new world
Can I stay here forever, here with you?

I can't exactly remember me being an instant christian, I kind of flowed into it... but I can remember times when I felt him closer than ever. And I wanted to stay there forever.
Nothing like the arms of Jesus to fall into when you can't stand on your own.


The Starfield lyrics will become more and more plentiful as I listen to them non-stop because YC is in 35 days! Nice.


What is it in me, that hangs on for so long?
Why do I fight the tears that come?
I work so hard to, keep in control when,
All that I want is to let go

It's all for You,
I'm letting go.

I'll take this life, And lay it down, I'm letting go.
My hopes and dreams, Here at Your feet, I'm letting go.

Thats why I love Starfield soo much. They say the exact words that I want to say, when I can't find the words.




Happy Birthday Meaghan :) I miss you!
And to everyone else, have a fun and safe Labour Day Weekend!

ttfn

What makes you different, makes you beautiful.

Up for 17 hours. I thought I would be tired. but I'm not!

And I'm going to be up at 6 again tomorrow to drive dad to work because I have to go to the doctor. Walk-in too so its going to take me like... forever... to get seen. Then off to Corps Retreat- hopefully. Mom seems to think that I'm to sick to go. Uh-oh.

I just finshed watching both the Princess Diaries movies with Jillian, and everytime I watch them it makes me feel so good!


I know sometimes you feel
Like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know
What you have within
When I look at you
I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere

God always knows you beautiful, even when you feel as far away from it as you can. :)

I decide, how I live
I decide, who i love
choice is mine and no one gets to make my mind up I decide
I'm the one who's running my life

Someone else tells me that too, but no one besides me and Him can tell me.


I'm going to 'decide' to go to sleep now. Smart choice? I think so.

Nighty-Night!

sneezecoughsniff

Man, being sick makes you loopy! haha.
It also gives you a chance to sleep/watch loads of movies! Like: Hillary Duff and M-K & A movies :) hehe. See? I told you I'm going loopy.

The only people reading this will still love me even if I spill my guilty pleasure (and most of you already know it), soooo here it is. Hillary Duff (music and movies), and Mary-Kate and Ashley. There you have it. And in light of you all knowing that, here is some lyrics.

You act like you don't know me
When you see me on the street
You're makin like I turn you off
But I know you think I'm sweet
Why you wanna be like that
I guess you're insecure
If you say what's on your mind
I might answer sure

So I walk a little slower
And I try to catch your eye
Sometimes it's so hard to see
The good things passing by
There may never be a sign
No flashing neon light
Telling you to make your move
Or when the time is right

So...
Why not take a crazy chance
Why not do a crazy dance
If you lose a moment
You might lose a lot
So why not, why not

You always dress in yellow
When you wanna dress in gold
Instead of listening to your heart
You do just what you're told
You keep waiting where you are
For what you'll never know
So let's just get into your car
And go, baby, go

So...
Why not take a crazy chance
Why not do a crazy dance
If you lose a moment
You might lose a lot
So why not, why not

Oh... I could be the one for you
Oh yeah... Maybe yes, maybe no
Oh... It could be the thing to do
What I'm sayin is you gotta let me know

Oh ah aya aya ay yaya
Ah ah aya aya ay yaya

You'll never get to heaven
Or even to L.A.
If you don't believe there's a way

Why not take a star from the sky
Why not spread your wings and fly
Oh, it might take a little
And it might take a lot
But, why not, why not
Why not take a crazy chance
Why not do a crazy dance
If you lose a moment
You might lose a lot
So why not, why not

I apologize for bashing all the people who went to the H-Duff concert. On the inside I was tres jealous of you! haha

funny.

ttfn!
-Melis

Love!

Gah, I love God! :) The surprises never stop do they?

God Answers Prayer doesn't he? I love blogs and journals for that reason. You know, sometimes you never realize how many prayers he does answer in your life until you look back on them. I was just reading some of my old blogs, and some of the things that caused me loads of greif - I havn't even thought about them. Examples?

The praying out loud thing. I had no problem on Friday night to do that at all! :D Yes!

Fire - havn't lost it yet, and its been 10 days!

haha, God is so Good. I can't wait for more glimpes of his love.

-Melis

Doy

"Doy...huh... you don't get alot of 'Doy' these days"

Week number 2 of being home. And I don't miss camp one bit. Not that I didn't love it there, but I love being home even more. Probably because this past week has been awesome. VBS went really good, frustrating at times, but fun :). Then this weekend was also awesome. Youth Group (praying, hanging out. Whats better?). BBQ on saturday night, fun times. Last night the bonfire was cancelled. That was kind of a bust, but whatever. I'm over it.

Corps Retreat on Friday! Its going to be different, but fun! We'll get to just hang out on the beach and look at the stars again:
I've been thinkin' 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars
I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars
I feel like myself


When everything inside me looks like everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

And I'm on fire when you're near me
I'm on fire when you speak
I'm on fire burning out these mysteries

I forgot how much I love Switchfoot

Last night we watched V for Vendetta. Cool movie.
"God is in the Rain"

Movie + Mom night!
Later Days :)

New Starfield Song!

Timing is everything.

You know its a funny thing when you really want something for so long, it comes to you all at once, from more than one angle all of a sudden... right out of the blue. Then... you decide you don't want it right now. Something where it seems like you would do anything to have, or share it with anyone, but now it doesn't even matter-- even when its right under your nose.
Kind of frustrating, but at the same time, its relieving to know God answers prayers, and still He lets you know you don't need what you thought you did right now after all.

Strange.

I think thats awesome actually. Annoying as it may seem. It really gives me more faith and trust in God that he does provide, and sometimes things do go your way... even when you don't need them to.

Sometimes other things are more important than the things you want the most.

:)

Camp

Camp is over for another year :( It was awesome though. Lots of fun times, scary times and stressful times. But as usual, it was super rewarding. I can't possibly type everything that happened, so I'll add some pictures instead (just for you Jen!!)

(more to come later from other people!)

<- Music camp (we had a party for the Junior Girls!)

<- Advanced/Level 8 Sectionals

<-Donette straighting my hair while I'm eating an ice cream cone

<- Me and Laura on Formal night

<- Me and Maryellen

Summer time and the livin' is easy

Me with the Cabin Award Prize:

Timbrel Buddies (me, katharine and Natalie):

Cabino Nino:

Home for the weekend. Its a weird feeling being home. I missed loads of people since I've been gone. Some have written me letters (some have not!!!!) and I've talked to some of you on the phone. But for those of you who I havn't talked to (like courtney!!) here's a breif summary:

Orientation- Fun, learnt alot about God's plan and not fearing what he has in store for you... fell down on Canada and split my knee open (7 stiches). Got carried down on a backboard to the lake that night (because I was on crutches) by everyone to watch the fireworks.
Ironic that the first-aider was the first to get hurt? not when its me!

7-9 camp- faking children, cliny children. Fun times. :) also took a road trip to the public health nurse everyday to get my dressing changed.
10-12 - got my stiches out !!
Teen-first day was stress to the MAX. most stressful day all summer so far. But most rewarding week. bcame super close to the New Canadians. and I saw Snookie today waiting for a bus! woo!

Music camps- Best weeks so far this summer. Became super close to the guests (Jennifer and CHarlie) (From NC court! They know your sister (I asked) hehe) I love them, they are so fun and have so much to say about music and God.

My entire summer could never be sumed up in a million journal entries. It was that amazing. And its not even over yet. I go back on Tuesday for another 2 weeks. Then on August 19th I'm done :)

All registered for mun. Choral conducting and Phyc. Slightly scared. eeeek.

I'm tired so I'm going to bed. nighty-night!

I hope you're all having an awesome summer just like I am :):)
-Melissa "rene" :)

All that I need is held in the hand that'll always offer me this love.

Here I go with the song lyrics again. You know, sometimes I think that the only thing that dosn't let you down is music and God.

I don't need another friend tryin' to tell me something
I don't need somebody's expert advice
When just another two cents still adds up to nothin'
I get away to find a place to close my eyes

And I don't need somebody new on the television
"Send your money and we'll send you a new life"
And I don't need your tried-and-true paperback edition
The one that fixed you overnight

I'm lookin' at You, lookin' at me
Lookin' for love that comes with a guarantee
What if I knew all that I need
Is held in a hand that'll always offer me this love

And I don't have to waste my time wonderin' who will love me
I don't need to look for some kind of clue
It isn't written in my sign or the stars above me
It isn't hidden in the blue

I'm lookin' at You, lookin' at me
Lookin' for love that comes with a guarantee
What if I knew all that I need
Is held in a hand that'll always offer me this love

I'm not tryin' to set an expectation
I'm not askin' for the moon
I just need a little confirmation, something true

I'm lookin' at You, lookin' at me
Lookin' for love that comes with a guarantee
What if I knew all that I need
Is held in a hand that'll always offer me this love

Mirror

I keep being hit across the face with song lyrics lately. Maybe its because lately I don't listen to anything besides christian music. Which is awesome! So BarlowGirl sings this song called Mirror on WOW HITS 2006. Its really cool. Not that I'm one of those girls who is always down on what I look like, but thats not to say that it dosn't bother me sometimes. Duh, I mean I am human. But this song just remindes me that I am made in God's image and I am a face of one of his children, and thats more beautiful than the most attractive person in the world. WOO!

Mirror, Mirror on the wall: have I got it?
'Cause Mirror, you've always told me who I am
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect
So sorry, you won't define me
Sorry, you don't own me

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
Yeah, yeah
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try

Mirror, I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes of He who made me
And to Him, I have beauty beyond compare
I know He defines me
Yeah, yeah

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
Yeah, yeah
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try

You don't define me, you don't define me
You don't define me, you don't define me

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
Yeah, yeah
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try
Yeah, yeah

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
Yeah, yeah
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try

clap clap clap clap -WOO...

Cast your burdens on Jesus, for He cares for you!
Cast your burdens on Jesus, for He cares for you!

Higher higher,
higher higher higher higher higher higher
Life Jesus higher!

Lower lower
lower lower lower lower lower lower
Stomp Satan lower!

Wider wider
wider wider wider wider wider wider
Spread the gosple wider!

Super super (oooha oooha)
super super super super super super
Supernatural Powers!


Friday was shopping for congress/camp stuff and then McDonalds on Vaden :) In the night there was a Youth Rally at the West (really good!) followed by BBQ at Jessica's!

Yesterday was the Program Staff meeting at Melanies, then I went to Rob, Susan and Tim's students recital, then McDonalds again then practicing for solo then off to Jana's to watch the Oilers WIN. Game 7 here we come!!! Right after the game we mad reservations Monday night at Don Cheerys!! Its going to be a fun time :)

Its been a busy week/weekend. and another busy one to come. I start working at DHQ tomorrow from 8:30-4 until Friday. That's very exciting because its all prep for camp. Which is in 10 DAYS! I can count on my hands now! wooooieee!

Anyways, like I was saying... The Youth Rally was good on Friday night. There were lots of courses sung and one of the ones that stood out was Cast your Burdens Now, here's a song that we sing at least once at week at church. Its one of the kid's favorites but I always loathed it because... Well its not an masterpiece of musical composition by anymeans. Its realllly repetitive, and it just never had a good place in my mind. But boy was I wrong. On Friday night I don't know why, but it actually clued into me what that song was saying. Whenever I sang it before I never payed attention to what I was singing. This simple song has everything you ever need to know about the christian faith summed up in like less than 20 words!

- Cast your burdens on Jesus, for HE cares for YOU! (everything that's weighing you down, Jesus wants to take away because he loves you SOOOOOOO much)
- Lift Jesus Higher! (Praise him for everything he is!)
- Stomp Satan Lower! (self-explanatory)
- Spread the gospel wider! (wittness to tell others about Jesus!)
- Supernatural Powers! (He can do miraculous things!)

Seriously!? Is there any better promise? I think NOT! :)

So from now on I will not 'loathe' this song, because even though its not the most impressive piece of music ever written it still has something even more special in it!

Later Days!!
-Melis

Gratitude

Send some rain, would You send some rain?
Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case ...

We'll give thanks to You with gratitude
For lessons learned in how to thirst for You
How to bless the very sun that warms our face
If You never send us rain

Daily bread, give us daily bread
Bless our bodies, keep our children fed
Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight
Wrap us up and warm us through
Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs
Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time
Or maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case...

We'll give thanks to You with gratitude
A lesson learned to hunger after You
That a starry sky offers a better view
If no roof is overhead
And if we never taste that bread

Oh, the differences that often are between
Everything we want and what we really need
So grant us peace, Jesus, grant us peace
Move our hearts to hear a single beat
Between alibis and enemies tonight
Or maybe not, not today
Peace might be another world away
And if that's the case...

We'll give thanks to You with gratitude
For lessons learned in how to trust in You
That we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream
In abundance or in need
And if You never grant us peace...
But, Jesus, would You please...

You know this song never ceases to amaze me. No matter how many times I listen to it or how many times someone sings it in church. Its just so powerful.

Even though God doesn't Provide you with what you think you need or what you want, we should thank him for not giving that to us. Because in the end who really knows the best? Us or God? Duh.

This part especially; "Bless our bodies keep our children fed... Tucked away between our sturdy roofs... Or maybe not, not today. And if that's the case... We give thanks to you with gratitude, that a starry sky offers a better view is no roof is over head."

Seriously, if I was homeless would I be praising God because I could see the stars? I seriously don't know. That would be so hard. But that's what has to happen. Even in the bad times think positive and worship God for what you have... Even if you think that is nothing. That is what God is there for. He is there for us in times when we need Him the most, and times like that are the very times we need Him the most. I want to be like that. I want to worship God and trust Him in the hard times. I hope and pray that I will succeed. Because I haven't really come across a time like that yet in my life. But when I do, He'll be there, and I hope I see Him.

:)

Melis

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Starfield

Dosn't that ^ look exciting???

As a member of the Starfield Street Team I feel obligated to tell all of you that they will be doing a CANADIAN TOUR for their new album BEAUTY IN THE BROKEN the fall of 2006!

I'm not sure if this includes them coming to YC for us... but somehow I don't think so. They're booked randomly in the states in September, after YC and in November. So I don't know what they're going to do. But anyway, they said "start spreading the word" so I am!

Who's excited!?!?!?!?

Soccerrrr

I just watched 2 world cup games while getting ready for tonight. Thats alot of soccer in a row. 180 minutes worth. Woah.

And that was the most intense 3 minitues of a soccer game I've ever seen. And trust me... SJMSA (St. John's Minor Soccer Association) can get pretty crazy. HA.

I also want to say that the polish goal keeper is very cute. And he played awesome-ly for playing a team with a powerful offence. Props.

GO BRAZIL! I missed their game yesterday, but they WONNNNNN.

Cup 2 years in a row? I think SO!

-Melis

Vote!

Hello All!

I like to think that I write so much in this blog because I'm going away for the summer in 14 DAYS and I won't be writting an entry until August 19th or so. But thats probably not true, because even if I wasn't going to camp I think I would write just as many. Oh well!

I love being up early. It sure isn't fun when you know you have to go to school or something... but when you're on summer vacation, and just get up, relax, drink some coffee, go for a walk (etc) it's clearly a wicked feeling. Well this morning I got up for a reason... to drive Mommy Airport! She's going to Monteral for a Nursing Conference therefore, until Monday, its just me and the boys! I guess there will be a whole lot of fast food and lack of clean clothes going on for the next few days. I kind of like it when mom's not here. I love her (duh!), but when she's not here I'm kind of like the one who takes care of the boys... well if they want a decent meal I get to make it... I don't know. Its different.

I also have the access of Mom's car whenever I want it! WOOO. haha

Yesterday Laura picked me up and we went shopping and stuff, looking for her sneakers. I love just spending the day with her. haha. And I did it on Monday too. Man, we are always together. YES. love it. We went to Wal-Mart and she bought a BOCCE ball set! For those of you who don't know... its clearly one of the best games ever! It's kind of like lawn bowling and curling. Each team gets 4 balls, and someone has to throw a smaller white ball out in the grass, or dirt, or sand and you have to get your balls as close to the white one as possible. It seems boring, but its really fun. So anyway, after we bought that one we went to church and played it on the lawn. Tres fun time.

Last night we had a BBQ at sarah's for Jill's birthday. It was so much fun. Everyone is home for the summer... Jill, Jess, and Lesley along with me, Laura, Sarah, Susan (and special appearence by Jonathan) It was cool to all be together again. I must say, we had WAY too much fun laughing at may things including very odly shaped plants. Oh dear.

Oh! I can't get enough of John Ortberg so now I'm reading "God is Closer than You Think". Its a good book so far! Even though I'm only at chapter 3. More on that later!

Now, here comes the VOTING part! I need your help! On Sunday I'm doing a clarinet solo at church (PM... BE THERE!) and Tim is playing for me. We have it narrowed down to 3 songs (one fo them is not the best for clarinet though, but tim dosn't know that yet! haha), so which one do you think we should play!?

a) Breathe (in a bad register for the clarinet) so probablynot going to do that one
b) As the Deer
OR
c) Above All

So what do you think!? hummm... definitly one of the last 2. I think we're going to pratice both of them and see what happens. Maybe I'll just fall in love with one of them. I guess it depends on what Tim does with them.

Thats all for now. I may get bored in the next few... hours!... haha... and write something else... but until then.

Later Days!
Melis

118 days until SHOUT!

STARFIELD oh yeah, thats right!

www.ycnewfoundland.org

(Court you can come if you want! With my church or Bethesda :D)

Peace

eighteen

Thats right... eighteen days until I'm home. Well, you know... obviously this is home too, but camp is my other home. And its true. Other than this house, I would say that Starrigan is the place I have spent the most time at other than this house. 6 weeks last yeat 4 the year before that and 4 music camp's, Corps Retreat. I know some people have been there way longer than me, but for only knowing about it since 2000 I'm not doing to bad. haha. Anyway, I actually can't wait to go.

Its going to be really weird without Dale, Andrew, Kayla, Jillian, Jon, Seritha, and Deborah since they were all there my first year, but we have an awesome bunch of newbies comming in to. Jeremy, Sara, Erica, Maria, Marcus, and Jon... ( I think thats all?). No doubt its going to be an awesome summer, with loads to learn from God and from eachother.

These pictures I scamed from Bethany :). Thery're from last year, the infamous 'Staff Dance'. King of Magesty. haha. Man that was fun, as much as we complined about having to learn it and having to do it week after week, its definitly one of the biggest and funnest memories from the summer. Even though it was embarsing. haha.

<- Me and co-counsellor Jillian :) I'm gonna miss you misses.

All of you fine people should ask me for the Starrigan address and write me letters :D I might even write you back.

I'm there from June 28th until the 19th of August. DO IT!

Anyways, I'm sure there will be more camp related rants comming, so stay tuned!


Later days!

*Melis

Things I love

1. Good lyrics
2. The first snowfall
3. Cotton Candy
4. Hugs
5. Mail
6. Worship
7. Clarinet
8. The sound a tennis ball makes when it hits your raquet
9. Playing bord games
10. When people are happy to see you
11. Starfield
12. Friends (TV show)
13. Un-expected phone calls
14. Chocolate
15. Camp Starrigan
i) Walks to the lake
ii) Brownies
iii) Swings
iv) Staff Lounge
v) Everything...
16. Putting your music on Shuffel
17. Walking in the Rain
18. Countdowns
19. The smell of home-made bread
20. Looking up at the cross at church
21. Pictures
22. Checks
23. Hepling people
24. Being thought about
25. Deep conversations
26. Butterflys (not the bug)
27. Picking pictures out of clouds
28. Searching Google images.
29. The first day of summer vacation
30. Sleeping in, but there's also something I hate about it too. Weird.
31. Cotton Candy
32. The 'new car' smell
34. Stickers
35. Baking cookies/muffins/a cake
36. Youth Group
37. Playing in a Concert Band
38. Smilie faces
39. Catching up with people.
40. Going 'around the block' with Deirdre.
41. Starfield42. A good joke (most of you wouldn't consider them 'good' though! haha)
43. Bonfires
44. Roasting marshmellows (Even though I don't particurally like eating them.
45. A Mixed CD
46. Inside jokes
47. Reading
48. Writting everything Down
49. Good e-mails
50. Writting with a good pen
51. Typing
52. Playing with other people's hair (but not people playing with mine)
53. Thinking about Junior High
54. Listening to music in the car, or through headphones.
55. Dad's cool car.
56. Bubbles
57. Mr. Freezie's
58. Flip-Flop Tan!
59. Swimming
60. Canoeing
61. YC
62. Crayons
63. Coca Cola
64. The Toronto Maple Leafs
65. Teaching Sunday School
66. When Kids say cute things
67. Picking out the a toothbrush at the dentists office
68. Picking out New glasses
69. Drawing on the road with Chalk
70. 'Alone' time
71. Sleepovers
72. Lipgloss
73. Randomally playing Piano
74. Being Hyper
75. Playing N64

BJH. Good times.

The BJH grade nine leaving ceremony was this past week and Deirdre's sister Emily and Amanda's sister Melissa graduated together just like Me, Amanda, and Deirdre did. But I don't have a younger sister in grade 9 or a younger sister at all. But they didn't forget. haha. They're soo funny. They made a space in their picture for me! (Or my younger sister) the caption said: WHERE ARE YOU MELISSA WILLIAMS?

I thought it was halarious. Thanks for remembering me girls! You're awesome! haha

Consuming Fire

Yesterday I watched all the special features of the HP and the Goblet of Fire because I'm cool. And I can never get enough Harry Potter :) . Dale came over for supper and we had BBQ. (mmmmm...). I had no plans for the night time so I decided to go to a bonfire at Topsail Beach. Tim had nothing to do either so I picked him up and we went together. When Jon, Dale and Dave showed up we decided to get the fire started. And this guy Dave knew had a whole pick-up truck full of wood and he said we could have as much as we wanted! Awesome! So the 5 of us (well I should say the 4 guys) got the fire started and tryed to make it as giagantic as possible (with wood in a teepee shape about 6 feet high!). Props guys, it was a good fire. Then later Jess, Melanie, Steph and Susan showed up and they brought marshmellow's and all that usual stuff. It was fun. My clothes smell like smoke now. I like that smell. So at 11 we doused the fire and I drove Tim home. It was a fun night.

Consuming fire,
Fan into flame,
A passion for Your name.

Bonfires are always an awesome time.

ps: Camp in 24 days! :D

Growing Up

You know, the older you get the more weird things seem to get. Like when people ask me what I'm doing I say "I will be starting my second year in music school in the fall" Sacond Year? Thats creepy. And also the fact that you know more and more people getting married. Like older cousins, friends even, who are only a few years older than me. Its also weird that when you get one of those stupid elementry-school crushes (yes, they still happen even at 18) on someone a couple of years older than you... the guy is already married. Ug... thats weird. haha.

Oh my, I shouldn't even hit the post button because this was a ridiculous entry... haha. but it makes me laugh.

And there are also advantages to being older to. So many.

-Melis

I Heart Tall Girl

Well... this is my new obsession. Yes, pants that are actually long enough for me to not look like a geek. I actually have to hem my new cargo pants because they are about a 37 inseam. I thought I would share my new prized posessions for all the world to see.

<- These are my favorites... but mine are that army green color and not beige. They have little bits of lace around the pockets and patches on the front and one on the back. They roll all the way down, and up higher than they are in the picture too. Awesome. And they were on sale...

The jeans on the right are alson now mine... AND also on sale... I rock.

I realize I am a loser, but don't judge me unless you're as tall as me and the only place you can get pants is on the mainland. (So Erin Cahill... judge away! :))
THE END.

Home Sweet Home

SO I'm on the rock again. I'm so super glad to be home. I don't even know why... because I love everything about Burlington... the weather, the pretty gardens, my family. But here I have all my friends. So I guess thats why I missed it. But really, it was only 10 days. haha sounds like I've been gone for years. I need to get over it!

So hopefully I will get to hang out with everyone again, and everything will all be back to normal! I get to see Laura and Melanie tomorrow for our CISM courses (Crisis Intervention and Stress Management or something...). Then I get to see more of you on Wednesday night for band! and the rest of you.... pshaw... I'll have to pencil you in somewhere. JUST KIDDING.

Love you all, and see you soon!
-Melis

Hold onto Your Fork

Uncle Bob, Janet, Nan and Mom are gone to Costco... and since I see no real thrill in going there I'm staying home with Pop and Higgins (the dog!).
We just came back from Toronto where we went on the Go! Train. The Go train is just a regular train with 2 stories that people use to commute through certian cities. We went through Missisagua, Oakville... and then onto Toronto. This morning the weather was the worst its been while we've been here. It was raining like crazy... then after it stoped it got really humid, so the smog is out in full force. In Toronto we could hardly see the op of the CN tower. I felt like I was choking everytime I breathed in... yucky...

So now I can actually say... not tomorrow, but the next day I'm comming home! YAHOO! All day Sunday will be flying/waiting around in Halifax airport. I actually don't mind the travelling part... planes are fun. Except when my ears pop boooo. I guess I like it so much because I know I'm going somewhere to have a fun time... or comming back to see people and just be home. Its been fun here... its nice to spend time with family, espically when times like these are the only way to see them. But I love home, and I can't wait to be back there again.

So explanation of the title should be in order eh? haha. In the book "If you want to walk on water you've got to get out of the boat" the author told of a girl who was about to die, and was planning her funeral. She told the pastor she wanted to be holding a fork in her hand in her casket. The reason she wanted to do this was because whenever she was at dinners and stuff, when dessert was comming the waiter would tell her to "hold onto her fork" and save it for the awesome dessert that was about to be had. And she thought of it as "Hold on because better things are comming". And thats why she had the fork in her hand after she died Because "Better things were comming" in heaven. hehe. I thought that was a cute story, and worthy of sharing!

Later Days :0
-melissa

Oliver!

Just came back from the famous Stratford Festival where we saw the musical Oliver! man... it was sooooooo good. The little boy who played Oliver was amazing, way better than the movie that was made in 1969 by a long shot. And the guy who played Fagin was in the movie Chicago (yes, the one with Catherine Zeda Jones) and The Exorcism of Emily Rose... and he was one of the Monkeys! haha! Yeah, like the TV show/band "hey! hey! We're the monkeys" haha. Awesome. It was a pretty cool night. I must say, it got me way pumped for the production of it comming up in the fall in St. John's. I hope I get to be a part of it again, that would be excellent.
Earlier this morning we went to TALL GIRLS... yes. My life is complete. well you know... I bought 2 pairs of pants, and I'm going to have to rool them up (36 inseam YES)Its insane... I actually felt short in there with all the people working/shopping in there. It was the weirdest feeling, from going through your life to being one of tallest, to being one of the shortest... haha. But I went there, and I can finally say that I have. We also went to the Disney store (whats a trip to ON without a trip there? And I bought a cup for my "cup collection" (finding nemo!) and a toy story fan for camp! yehaw!

Back to this morning, the drive to Stratford is 2 hours (ish). So I took in the sights on the way there. I think we went through about5/6 big cities... like bigger than St. Johns. Well there is Burlington, Hamilton, Guelph, Brampton (Home of Wayne Greskey! and Cheryal Fagner haha)Toronto... and loads more. Hamilton alone has 415 000 people. And here in Burlington has about 135 000. which is close to St. John's. Maybe thats why I like it here so much.

Well its 1:00am here... so I'm going to bed! long day... and into Toronto tomorrow!
later Days! :)
-Melissa

Unashamed

Not doing very much leads to way too much thinking. Maybe time well spent, but maybe somethings don't need that much attention. This is the kind of day I've been having.

The day before I came up here I was watching the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. Awesome movie. And the section where Lena (Alexis Bedal) finally lets go of her modesty and learns to let things in is one of my favorite parts of the whole movie. In case you don't know the story, she meets a guy (Kostas) when she goes to visit her grand-parents in Greece. Kostas' parents died when he was 12 and he lives with his grandfather there in Greece. Another tradegty in the movie is that one of Lena's best friends Bridgette's mother killed herself. And when Lena has this moment where her whole life turns around she says "I don't understand how people like Bridgette and Kostas who have lost everything can still be so open to love, and I, who have lost nothing can not."

Something made me think about this today. I'm kind of like Lena. Not because of love, but about my beliefs. God, Jesus, and worship are the most important things in my life. And I pratice them every single day... praying, reading the word. But why can't I tell people about it. Sure, I told loads of people about it when I was running Quest in my school. But I didn't know any of them. But I had other Christians right next to me, who could answer anything that I was too arfiad to say. Sure I did a session last year at Youth Together about Quest, but to a room of people I knew believed what I believed, and a room full of people I had never met before.
Why is it so much harder to tell people who I know and love about my faith. I hate it when I have to pray in church (especially when my mom is there) but I do it anyway because I know I shouldn't care. But that dosn't change how much I hate it.
Why is it at SNAC or bible study when people I care about the most are there, I hate praying out loud or doing devotions? Its the dumbest thing ever. I know these people. They know me. Before we pray I actually say in my head "Please Val, don't pick me, don't pick me" but she does alot. They think the same things I do about God. They pratice their faith just as much as I do. So why do I care so much?
People appriciate you speaking out. Well, I know I appriciate it when others do. It makes me proud to know how strong others are in their faith.

Its the people I care the most about, and who mean the most to me who I can't express the most important aspect of my life to. There's something wrong with that picture. You think it would be harder to tell strangers about your beliefs. But I find that the easiest thing ever. Again... why??

Maybe its because I'm afraid I'll mess up. I know that infront of at least one person in particular I think that I have to do everything just right for them to appriciate me. And doing it like that is for the wrong reasons. Who cares what others think. I'm speaking out in my faith because I love God. And I want to serve him however I am. People will like you for you. You can't change who you are. How much does it take to really realize that?

I don't even know if this is what people think this about me. Because they just see the outside me. Who speaks in church, and prays in bible study. They don't see the inside me who is too arfaid to say no when someone asks me to speak out.

I can't talk to it around Dad, Mom, Grand-Parents, Uncles... Aunts, Cousins, Friends, best Friends. I'm ashamed. And thats the worst thing I could ever be.

I only started thinking this last night. I guess it was always there, but I ignored it. The thought never crossed my mind before that i'm actually afraid. I just went along with how much I didn't like it. But I don't like not liking it. I want people to know how much I love what I believe. Because I do SOOOO much.

I guess its good that I came to realize this. Now I can fix it.

I need to jump into the ocean like Lena. I need to get over this stupid roadblock. And I will, soon enough.

"I know I'm weak, I know I'm unworthy,
To Call upon your name.
But because of grace,
because of your Mercy,
I stand here unashamed"

Half Way

Today marks day 6 of my trip to Ontario. Nothing is really happening! haha. Today we were supposed to go shopping again, but we had a bathroom incident (The sink got clogged) and its taking most of the day to fix. But I really don't care. This will give me more time to finish Lord of the Rings! I'm ashamed to say that I never gave these movies a fair chance. Sorry guys! But now that theres not much to do I can watch them all. Uncle Bob ownes all of them, and because I like them so much, hes giving me a copy! woooo. haha! Awesome. So yeah, the movies are good, I'm good. But I still can't wait to come home.

I miss everyone!!

You want to hear something crazy. This is going to be the longest time EVER in the history of our best-friendship that me and Laura have gone without seeing eachother! haha. Oh my. But its true! Before I left I saw here every single day... one day she'd sleep over to my house, then we would have Youth Group the next night or something. Then the night after that I would sleep over to her house! Its crazy. And this summer we'll be roomates. A sleepover EVERY DAY! Oh man, I am beyond pumped.

Well, I'd love to stay and chat about the nothing I've been doing, but I need to watch the last half of Return of the King!

Au Revoir!

(P.S: I've done 30+ SuDoKu's in the past 2 days. YEHAW)

R.D.F in Ontario?

This morning = waking up to bacon and eggs... sweet deal. Then a walk on the beach of lake Ontario. That was nice... but it was freezing. I thought I was out of Newfoundland??? Oh well. It was still sunny. The beach is beautiful. White sand like Cavendish in PEI, or a beach in California. Purday :) Now I'm waiting to have turkey dinner!! yesssss. And we bought coke at the store this morning too. Ah yes life is good. I have everything I need, well except all of you guys!

Youth Together is over now. How'd it go? I was talking to Jon just a little while ago and he said it was amazing. I'm glad.

And COURT... what is your msn space address? Because I can't get to it from Windows Messenger? And I want to read your Blog!


Sorry for the pointlessness, but I mainly wanted to ask Court that :) I might post again tonight if anything exciting happend today :)

Byeee

Day 3

Hello from Burlington again! Day three here. Yesterday we relaxed (I/m half way done my book! How about you Laura? haha) and went grocery shopping at Fortinos. Its a fancy, BIGger Dominion. I love going grocery shopping, because I get to pick out anything I want to eat. My Uncle is kind of a weird food eater... you know, willing to eat pretty much anything that isn't normal. So I picked out Chicken nuggets and Kraft dinner to eat when the food gets a little too weird for me! haha.

After lunch me and mom are going to walk to the Burlington Mall which is only a couple of blocks down the road. That should be a fun time! Shopping. You know, its growing on me. I used to hate shopping. Well, some aspects of it I still do. But I think its shopping in the Village and Avalon Malls gets kind of boring after a while. HELLO H&M and PAYLESS! wooot. :)

Also yesterday while we were just sitting around I was on the computer talking to some people, Jana, Court, Tim and Laura. That made me feel better. Knowing that even you guys are home having fun at Youth Councils or working, or whatever... I don't know. It odly just made he happier to be here. And not because I don't want to be home with you guys!!! I was kind of not looking forward to even comming here at all... It is for a whole 10 days... missing Youth Together, weekend hang-outs, band pratice, church. But I'm heppier to be here now.

Janet is a painter and she painted a picture of Pop from on the Go train last year. Its so realistic its nuts! Nan can't get over it... and she can't stop laughing. I don't know why its so funny, but whatever! haha. That was a good time. Then Pop went and sat next to it and made the same face. We took loads of pictures, and everyone thought it was halarious. Good times. Its cool to just hang out with your family. Usually when I'm home I'm out with friends or in my room doing stuff. But here where there's not much to call your own, you end up with your family all the time. And its very cool.

I really wish I was at Youth Councils right now. You're probably all in the middle of Recreation now... skating, shopping, scavenger hunting. Fun times. I think there are things here that I'm needed for. There was a reason I didn't stay home. as cheezy as that sounds.

Well see you all on the 28th (which will be exactly 1 MONTH until camp :))
-Later Days :) (wohoo weekenders... best cartoon ever)