Obsession

I am fixed on You as the world flies by
I have lost myself in Your blinding light

This Obsession is my call
Owning body, mind and soul
All I live for is to know You and be known.
This Obsession makes me whole
I give into its control
It consumes me like a fire within my bones.

I am not my own
I have been erased like a canvas washed by the strokes of grace
You're my obsession, You're all I ever need
I'm your possession


You know, all throughout junior high and even a bit now my friends called me 'Obsessed'. It used to be my un-official nickname. Because in every aspect of my life I was obsessed with something. Which is kind of sad I know. But that was who I was. There was always something I couldn't stop talking/thinking/needing to know everything about a certain guy, a Band, a TV show. I still have my favorites, like Starfield, and Friends. Which if you know me at all you know that I do know pretty much everything there is to know about it. And I love learning more, and I will never get sick of a Starfield CD or watching season after season of Friends. But this song on the new Starfield CD opened my eyes that I can have that kind of relationship with God.

Everything I am is because of him. I want to know Him. I want to know everything, and understand everything he has in store for my life. I want to understand why He gave his son, and how much He loves me. It should be like another one of my obsessions. It should be my ONLY obsession.

People shouldn't instantly say "Oh Melissa Williams, she's soo crazy about 'Friends'/Starfield" I want people to say "Oh Melissa Williams, She's so onfire for God". I don't really help that by talking about material things I am into to other people. If you know me you can't have a conversation without me quoting a Chandler joke or something. And that has to change.

I need to be constantly talking to God, thinking WWJD, and reading my bible to know every last thing I can to be as close as ever to our creator.

Later Days!
-Melissa